life is drama...so much...sometimes i feel like i cannot stand it. but i have a good boyfriend to help me thru everything i just don't always reconize him when i should.

mike (my babys daddy) got hit by a train but it just amputated his foot. they were able to save his heel and ankle...they are sewing his shit up on friday and gonna make sure it doesn't get an infection and if it doesn't he gets to keep his heel and ankle...pray for him.

been gettin arrested...not really BEEN but have twice in the last week...drama....just got arrested today for cussing my apartment manager out...lol fuck her

well...not a whole lot to say....

everyone keep their heads up cuz life is just gettin worse for everyone it seems...God is testing us all..

Joc

This summer has been the best summer in sooo long until today....this summer will always be THE WORST SUMMER for everyone. Last night Chris, Matt Cassity, me, and Kyle were hanging out....me matt and chris were drinking...kyle who was sober took me and chris to drive around to get out of the house and aaron called chris' cell phone and we instantly got excited and headed straight to his house to get him. When we pulled up he had a case of beer and we drove around for a lil bit. He kept wanting to listen to Nappy Roots SHAWTY WHERE UR HEAD AT...and he wore his glasses for the first time in a long time that night too...and he stood up out the t-tops on kyle's car and he was screaming WHOOO like life was just great..he seemed so fucking happy. Then we all went back to my house and he just set on the couch all night by himself didn't wanna smoke or anything..then he decided he wanted to walk home..he wouldnt let anyone give him a ride...and then he went home and killed himself. WHY?! nobody knows...everyone is so mad...but we are soooo sad. I hate seeing my friends like this. I never ever ever thought that one of those damn boys would die...never!!!! this is so crazy...its really hard. his funeral is in nebraska and we are all carpooling down there. it hasn't really hit anyone yet but it's coming and it's gonna come hard. I had a bunch of ppl over today to just set and talk about Aaron....this is really gonna be hard. i can't believe it.

REST IN PEACE AARON MICHAEL WOLFE I LOVE YOU AND I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU. YOU'RE NEVER GONNA BE FORGOTTEN!! WHY DID YOU DO IT THO!? WHY!!! GOD YOU DON'T KNOW THE PAIN EVERYONE FEELS AND THE CONFUSION...BUT WE LOVE YOU AND EVERYONE WANTS TO GET TATTOOS OF YOU...EVERYONE WANTS TO CELEBRATE YOUR LIFE...EVERYONE...YOU DON'T KNOW HOW MANY PPL LOVED YOU...PPL YOU HAVENT TALKED TO IN A LONG TIME ARE GOING CRAZY...YOU WERE SOOO LOVED AARON!! ....

I don't really know what to say, just updating. Summer has been really fun so far...I love all the friends I have...it just sucks sometimes having kids so I can't go out and have the fun I had when I was 15 turning 16 and all that. But I love my kids...and I still have so much fun because I don't ALWAYS have my kids...that is the good thing about BABY DADDYS!

I am still with Chris...but I reallllly miss Mike. Everything is so confusing....I hope it gets better for me. I don't know what to do anymore because I love them both....ohhhhhh....I dunno....

My birthday is Monday...JULY 3! And then the 4th is the next day...and then Robbie's birthday (my boyfriends mom) is the 5th....so that should be really fun those 3 days...I dunno what we are doing yet but I hope I have a blast....I hope I can find a babysitter on those 3 days...we'll see.

Welll.....call me if u wanna kick it...

JoC

Been a long time. I still don't have the internet at my house. I'm at the office of my apartments because they have high speed that the residents can use lol.

I've been real sick the past week...in and out of the hospital. But Lil Chris was there by my side thru it all and it helped me a lot. He made me a card and gave me a flower (a fake one, but its beautiful)...and he said that the flower will never die LIKE US lol...he is sooo much fun to be with..i love everything about him...he is hilarious and that is what makes it the most fun.

By the way, Mike and I are broken up and have been for about a month...So now you can be unconfused about the paragraph above.

This summer has been fun so far. Not near as fun as it used to be when nobody worked and we all got money from our parents and hung out in CAR LOADS drivin to the lake and getting fucked up every night. But it is still fun, and even more fun when everyone actually is able to get together and party.

I can't wait for Ashlee's baby girl to be born...my first neice! Only like a month left...I'm sooo excited!

Cynthia if u read this...why don't you wanna talk to me anymore? What did I do? It's really bothering me...this isn't like you to not call me anymore or to avoid all of my calls and messages.

Hmmm....what else to say? I dunno..not a whole lot...I just am REAL happy with my life right now...but it is still hard...losing someone you have been with for a year and a half and especially when you have a baby with that person...but I gotta do what is best for me and what makes me feel the most happy. Right? right...

JoCeLyNn

Heyyy heyy back at the freaking library! I got a home phone today...i already posted the damn # on the internet in comments so why the hell not post it up on this thing...600-5158...i just pray CERTAIN ppl don't call me...favors get realllly annoying ya know? lol

Tomorrow is Christopher's 2nd birthday...gonna have a lil party with cake at my house. CALL ME IF U WANT TO COME!

That's about it...

Jocelynn